Silent Voices – Messages from John

They did what was not humanly possible.

The victim – it’s coming through the skull.

He couldn’t let her go.

Wipe it up.

[It was me! I was the victim!]

Me waking up, crying out loud in the middle of the night, sobbing with grief:   “I’ll never let you go either Daddy!  I love you!  I miss you so badly!  Thank you for bringing me back to life! I can’t wait to be with you in heaven! I only want to live this life on earth so I can be with my children and future husband.”

[My father’s voice] You’ll have to wait a little while.  But life is short.

[Then I heard bad men talking.]

God rest his soul.

Now they’re calling him a bad guy.

I will never treat another human being so bad

Not a bad card, do you…

and her son about to come inside

do you have any ideas?

No-no!  This is an eating place

No, I’m going to take a knife to him

We don’t have a room key

Be patient

It will bill for you every time

You get into the King of Queens? (marveling tone?)

(A man’s voice) Where did he tell you?  What did he say?

It’s harmony

Post (past?) harmonies

Just never got there.

So strange.

Did you hear anything like that?


[men talking in a hallway]

(one’s early)

Conversation off

Comes into the bank directly – don’t know why I haven’t gotten it

(going over a wall)

we’re safe now

It won’t happen to me damn it

He brought the cash now right right he got it

[I see a blond woman in the entrance of Little Shepherd Cuisine now looking around a man coming through the front door behind her]

You know what the dreams are now?

They’re “inappropriate“.

It was a long way to lose the front

(walking through an alley way with a tall large white building on the right with lots of square windows on the side wall)


there’s a bunk of them

the boys

just don’t let those others know if you heard anything from him

Just let the others know you approve of all the literature I deserve (observe?)


No, by himself

Two men disappear.

Two men disappear all the time.


Just a person.

Karumph!  (sound like a car)

What do we get for Miss Cookie? [Miss Cookie is what I call my dog.]

This is the only way it will have significance.

Jesus, this is good.

More real.

I need to stop.

The torch.

Bring me the torch.

I don’t know why I called her a black person or what a fixer upper

Bo drinks Lancaster.

He’s 18.

Get her in the shower. [in the bakery?]

No use taxing too soon too soon

You have a mouth to feed.

[Said this to Nathaniel? To Kathy’s Son? To John Higdon?]

Why don’t you borrow my dad’s computer?

and butlers be saved

just kind of learning it and being real


Willis Smallwood

If that five year old says anything


He does have history

his brother

his brother said something funny once

to save the ball from going over

do no monkey business

Nikamboswa  [phonetic spelling]

Did you hear about that?

I don’t think she knows.

On the Chesapeake Bay.

Close knit family.

You’re a hammer.

(image of them climbing up to the roof or one of them climbing)

I see skunks building up there.

(I see image of me looking for my father down a long hallway like in St Ann’s, then me crying on the steps, now I can do nothing! in anguish)

[My father’s voice to me?] You’re not waiting for that to happen.

No no no you don’t

Everything else is celery. [salary?]

I saw you (sound of a loud bird) outside my barn as [those men?] stand by big doors

In a car out there on (Main)

You’re starting to get to me Ralphie

It was Checker’s that was my last draw

A tune tied up right now?

Yes, just as bad.

[Ralph:]  I thought she meant sleep.

You’re helping me by selling.

In the back of my left hand pocket that Respect thing in the mail [John Higdon saying? Ralph saying?]

dear we better hang up now, it’s getting late  [I think I see John Higdon reaching, trying to turn on overhead light in car]

Bo Dangles

Yo got a hole in it?!

He was 18

She was only 16

(She was only 62)

Miss Lackton please relax

I’m perfectly relaxed.

No, you’re not.

[A holy voice assuring me: you dumped him, your spirit]

those potatoes [Ralph speaking?]

how’d you manage to get those potatoes

I would be sitting naked


grab em o

come ‘ere come ‘ere!

(putting something into the other man’s hand like powder)

where’d Ralph go?

oh wow.

She’s makin shit up.

How’d you get them apples?